Wednesday, October 24, 2012

This is my life...

I know I can get pretty intense on this blog- so I wanted to take a moment to talk about the random things in life. The little things that make life, well life.

I hope all of you enjoy these- I have already posted most on Facebook, but I figured putting them all together works too. I'll be doing these ever so often in addition to my usual posts...

Before we get into all the real posts, I would like to state that these are in good fun. I have an absolutely amazing, blessed life. My life is about loving big, living life to the fullest, laughing until my stomach hurts, dancing out in the middle of the street, and sharing this joy with others.

Welcome to my new blog posts- This is my life :)

Today I was unpacking a box of things I ordered, mind you I have had this box for about a week, unopened and it was in my car all morning... As I got to the bottom of the box I noticed something move in I kinda moved the box again and it was a ROACH!!! So I ninja kicked the box over since I was outside and had a mild panic attack about how he was in the box the whole time. In other news, on Sunday a roach was thrown on me via a blanket and later that night a gigantic momma spider was killed so her 520285801 babies jumped ship to attack...This is my life
I would like to add on to this insect saga, there was a wasp at the small group I teach tonight. A random wasp, just chillin in the youth building. I am not about this life...

Creepy guy at Wing Stop, no I do not want your diamonds...also why are you smoking inside right now? Is this real life? Gotta get away from Sagemont ASAP, not 100% why I ever came back. Operation find house in full swing...And while we are at this, please button up your shirt, no one wants to see all that....this is my life

Decided to treat myself to Starbucks this morning, line of cars was like 10 deep and every parking spot was taken. So I decided to go to Whataburger, and of course they were packed. So now I'm just hungry. In other news, I spilt my drink all over the table at Outback last night...this is my life!

Pretty much just went through a drive thru, ordered my food, paid and then drove off without getting my food. Almost thought about not even going back and getting it, but the fat kid inside of me overpowered the blonde moment embarrassment. Haha This is my life...

This is just the beginning of many more to come. I lovelovelove my absolutely beautiful, random and crazy life.

Let's finish it off with one of my favorite quotes....

Where would the world be if all men had sought security and not taken risks or gambled with their lives on the chance that, if they won, life would be different and richer? It is from the bystanders (who are in the vast majority) that we receive the propaganda that life is not worth living, that life is drudgery, that the ambitions of youth must he laid aside for a life which is but a painful wait for death. These are the ones who squeeze what excitement they can from life out of the imaginations and experiences of others through books and movies. These are the insignificant and forgotten men who preach conformity because it is all they know. These are the men who dream at night of what could have been, but who wake at dawn to take their places at the now-familiar rut and to merely exist through another day. For them, the romance of life is long dead and they are forced to go through the years on a treadmill, cursing their existence, yet afraid to die because of the unknown which faces them after death. They lacked the only true courage: the kind which enables men to face the unknown regardless of the consequences.

As an afterthought, it seems hardly proper to write of life without once mentioning happiness; so we shall let the reader answer this question for himself: who is the happier man, he who has braved the storm of life and lived or he who has stayed securely on shore and merely existed?

Hunter S. Thompson

Sunday, October 7, 2012

Who I am.

Oh Lord, I'm still not sure what I stand for oh
What do I stand for? What do I stand for?
Most nights, I don't know anymore...
-Some Nights-
To be honest, I am pretty annoyed by that song now. BUT It does make me think, what do I stand for? These past 3 weeks have been tough for me. I think I have questioned a lot about my life. I have questioned God, I have questioned my faith, my existence. So here is my post about who I am. Just to remind myself, in case I ever forget again...
I am completely and totally in love with my Savior.
I am a daughter, not always the most loving one, but I am working on it.
I am a little sister, who sometimes is way too hard on my brother.
I am a granddaughter, who needs to remember that one day I will be old.
I am a big sister, to the most amazing little sister.
I am a friend, and I try to be the best one I can be everyday.
I am a sinner...daily...hourly.
I am forgiving, and I don't see this as a weakness.
I am a lover, who has an enormous heart.
I am passionate, about everything I do in life.
I am completely imperfect, and perfectly OK with it.
I am a co-worker, and hopefully easy to work with.
I am an animal lover, can't I just own my zoo already?
I am country at heart, the big city lights are pretty,but the stars shine brighter.
I judge, everyone does, but I try to love unconditionally like my Father does.
I am a leader, and would rather lead than follow.
I am strong, but HE is stronger.
I am beautiful, inside and out.
I am a Christian, and I want my words and actions to reflect this.
I want to remember that from the beginning until the end, HE has my life in His hands. Today, has been a day full of peace. He truly knew my heart was aching for His truth, about me. From the second I woke up and throughout my day, He has reminded me who I truly am. I have been going non stop these past few weeks, and lost sight of Him. The thing is, you have to stop and listen. 
So what do you stand for? If you don't know, or have managed to lose sight of who you are, I encourage you to just stop and be still. We have all been there before, no one is perfect. Even if you don't feel like you have a relationship with God, you do. He is always there, ready to listen. The tricky part comes when it is your turn to just shut up and be still in Him. We are such a fast paced world, and we need our answers right away. Let's just make sure it's not because we are being too loud, that we can't hear His truth.
So this week, I encourage you to take time to be alone, and figure out who you are. Talk to God like He is your best friend, and then most importantly listen.
Love y'all!! :)
The ways of this world are grabbing a hold
Won't let me go, won't let me fly by
It’s taking it's toll down on my soul
‘Cause I know what I need in my life
Don't let me lose my sight of You
Don't let me lose my sight

Shawn McDonald--Gravity