OK time for a HAPPY post. Well maybe happy isn't the word, but a healing post is more like it.
Since I have moved back, especially in this last week, the radio station that I am been listening to is KSBJ. The music on there is just so healing. It constantly reminds me that I am not the one in charge. "Praise You In This Storm" by Casting Crowns really spoke to me...
And I’ll praise you in this storm
and I will lift my hands
for You are who You are
no matter where I am
and every tear I’ve cried
You hold in your hand
You never left my side
and though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm
Those words are just so so true. I know God is here for me, like he always has been. I just need to learn to turn to him and his love.
I also want to thank those people who have been there for me. I need to remember to be thankful for what I do have and forget about what I don't....
The best advice my mom has given is "this to shall pass"
My friend from college, Galen "Sunshine", who I haven't spoken to in over a year really helped me put things into perspective. He said " I'm sorry to hear about your grandfather passing. That's seems to be the only real problem though. Just do what you know would make your grandfather proud (and I'm sure he is)"
He is right. I know none of this would have been as hard on me if I didn't lose him. I never really grieved when he passed. I now feel like all of it is hitting at once. Now I realize he is my only true loss. I love you and miss you way too much Papaw. I miss the high fives, the random Czech words, and you making your funny faces and mumbling about how crazy Mamaw is. I was lucky to have you as long as I did and I am lucky to still have Mamaw. Please watch over us.
Thank you also to all my other friends- Catherine, Carolina,Heather, Kelli, Ashley, Megan and to the one who has been probably annoyed by me-Lauren. Y'all all have pulled me up and made me realize who my true friends are. I can't wait to see those of you who I haven't seen in forever!!
Finally, a word to some of my friends who have been having a tough time at work. I promise y'all will one day find an employer who will reward you for your hard work and perfectionism- haha. You will actually enjoy going into work each day. They will do anything to help you succeed and not thrive on drama. Keep y'alls head up- I have been there before- for 2 long years of defeat and negative people. I know it gets better because that is where I am right now. It is so wonderful to have people who care and support you in the work environment and in life.
So here's to moving on-praising Him in the storm and true friends.